are my eyes broken?

I have worked so hard to try and lose weight the healthy way, exercise and food as opposed to exercise and oxygen. Trying to get to a body I don't mind being in. Getting to a 'goal weight' and still not being satisfied. I do not see a difference between my current weight and my highest weight. The numbers are different, my clothes size was different the way people treated me was different but I do not see a difference.

I've been trying to hard to do it the 'healthy' way but that still displeases people. I'm not a fan of hugs because I don't want people to feel how fat I am. Yet the rare occasion someone gives me a hug i'm told i'm 'too skinny' or that they can 'feel my bones'. But I don't see it.

I could sit and stare at myself for hours, tracing the rolls of fat on my stomach and watching my thighs expand as I stare. And it's hard because when I try to talk about how I feel about my body to people I get dismissed, laughed at, "if you're fat what does they make me?" "it's all in your head" nobody take's me seriously. They don't get it. It's lonely when they don't understand.

I hate it when people say stuff along the lines of 'You've got too skinny' or 'You look like you've lost weight' and even 'Have you been making yourself sick?!' I don't look any different and while they might say it to try and make me briefly happy it just feels like i'm being lied to, then i find it difficult to trust anything that person says..

But, are they lying to me or are my eyes just broken?