Just keep swimming.

With in the past week two friends-of-friends have committed suicide. A tragic loss to those who knew them. Lives which have been ended long before they were supposed to. Now this post will not be easy to write so please forgive me if this makes no sense at all. But if you or anyone you know is suicidal please read this.

If you're feeling suicidal then you're feeling as bad as possibly gets and it's hard. You think there is no alternative but to end your life. You're wrong though. There is ways to get through it, ways to help you cope, you have to believe me. I promise you that you will not always feel like this. Suicide stops the horrible feelings yes, but it also stops the good feelings, forever. Feelings of love, hope, happiness, pride.

Suicide is the permanent solution to a temporary problem. I encourage any of you who feel like this to start talking. Whether to a doctor, teacher, friend, family member, whoever it is there will be somebody willing to listen, somebody who will try to help you. Talking will get you the support that you need.

Whoever you are, whatever you are going through you were put on this planet for a reason, you might not know what that reason is, but please stick around to find out. Please just give yourself a chance to have an amazing future and see where life takes you.

I promise you won't always feel this bad. Try and distract yourself from these thoughts, go see friends, watch a movie, have a nap, go for a run, anything. Fill your time so you can't think too much. Whatever you do don't just sit and think about everything. Remember that every action has a consequence, so many people will be devastated by the loss of your life.

Suicide doesn't doesn't just end the chances of life getting worse, it eliminates the possibility of it ever getting better.
HELPLINE NUMBERS - 24 hour support.

Samaritans: 08457 909090
Child line: 0800 1111
NHS Direct:  0845 4647
(Please pick up the phone and talk to someone who can help, before it's too late)


"If you're reading this, congratulations you're alive. If that's not something to smile about I don't know what is" 

Here I go again...

I always moan when people do not understand mental illness, I've always thought it was ignorant and wanted to punch all the ignorant people in the face. I've wanted to scream and shout what it feels like to be depressed but at the same time I didn't want to be judged. I wanted them to be supportive when I opened up about my struggles, but instead I had ignorant comments coming from all directions and sometimes still do. In fact my twitter feed is currently full of them.

People always said to me "Just eat" (as if I didn't think of that...) or "You don't look depressed though" (Sorry I forgot to bring my dark rain cloud that literally hovers above my head with me today...) and even "Its your life, you chose to be this way" (As if anyone would chooose being miserable over happy). Some of you probably still think this way, some of you probably think that actually mental illness isn't that big a deal. But I'm done with being angry at people who lack understanding.

If you don't understand mental illness, I am happy for you, honestly I am. You shouldn't have to understand. If you don't understand what it's like to struggle to get out of bed each day I hope you jump out of bed everyday with a smile on your face ready to face the day. If you don't understand why people with eating disorders can't "Just eat" I hope you enjoy every single piece of food that passes your lips and that you don't instantly feel guilty for eating it.

If you do not understand how a person can purposely harm themselves then I am glad, I hope you're never that desperate to feel something. If you don't understand why somebody would want to give up their place on this earth then I hope you never feel so hopeless and desperate for relief that suicide seems like the only answer. If you don't understand why someone can't just go to rehab or to church or to see the doctor or turn to a friend then I hope you always have somewhere to go or something/someone to turn to. Because when you're depressed it's different.

If you don't understand mental illness, good. You aren't supposed to. Thank God for ignorance.

Unpopular opinion

Dear people of Leamington,

Stop with the horrible facebook pages before somebody hurts themselves or someone else because of it. I do not care what these people you're 'naming and shaming' have done. They are humans, they will make mistakes. I don't care if whats being said is lies to get at somebody you don't like, you don't have to get on with everyone. But it is not now and nor has it ever been acceptable publicly humiliate and slate these people.

I have 48 mutual friends with one of these pages, and regardless as to who those 48 people are I honestly have lost respect for you. I don't care if you haven't sent in a bitchy comment and are just on it for the 'entertainment' because since when is seeing other people being targeted at entertaining? If you've sent one in(not that you'll admit it) then I've lost even more respect for you, it is bullying and it's disgusting. If you've liked a status these pages have put then you are honestly just as bad, liking the fact that someone's being treated that way is quite frankly appalling.

It is not acceptable to go around treating other people like dirt regardless of who they are or what they've done. They are humans and they have feelings. Just because they've supposedly done something doesn't mean that what you say is not going to hurt them. Because words do hurt, and being publicly humiliated just makes it worse.

In the next 24 hours around 1429  teenagers will attempt suicide. Don't let that number increase due to facebook pages that find it socially acceptable to bully people for likes on a stupid status.

I'm done ranting, because I know that a lot of you aren't even phased about how someone might react to seeing their name on these pages because you all think it's hilarious. byeeeeeeeeeee